Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Every once in a while a movie touches your soul, and it happened this past Sunday when I went to see "The Wrestler". I loved this movie, but it made me feel sad too. I saw a lot of myself in the main character, Randy "The Ram" Robinson, who Mickey Rourke portrays so well.
As someone who often feels their "glory days" are behind them and wishes to turn the clock back 20 years, I knew how Ram was feeling.
Rationally I know this is silly, but sometimes that longing to be the hot, wrinkle and gray hair free girl I once was sneaks up on me. I look in the mirror some days and wonder who that is staring back at me. Like Ram, I loved the 80's, and felt that was the best time of my life, it was all fun, fun, and even more fun. Maybe I had too much fun, and that's why it's hard to let go of that time.
Maybe all these feelings have to do with the fact that I'm turning 40 this year, I don't know.
Rob reminded me later when we were talking about the movie, that I have a lot more going for me then Ram did; great friends, steady job, and a real partner. For these things I am truly grateful, but for one day, I would just love to wake up looking and feeling like I did in my 20's, at least at this age I'd have the wisdom to appreciate it.